New International Version (NIV)
12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
When you look in the mirror what do you see?
For years when I looked in the mirror I saw failure, defeat, low self esteem, a variety hurts and scars. I seen a little girl scared of the world, scared to love, scared to trust, scared to be herself, and scared of what others thought of her. I managed my life like a coward filled with an overwhelming sense of pride, not willing to face what entangled me in fear. What kept me in bondage to self. It was easier to hide, to pretend, and to ignore.
However, my heavenly father had another plan in store. He knew how I seen myself didn’t reflect the way he seen me. How much he loved me, how much he grieved for me, and how much he wanted to heal me. But I was distracted from his call, I wasn’t listening to his voice, and I was angry at him for how my life had been.
He did what any father would do to rebellious child, he disciplined me. In love. He put me in a position where I had nothing else to rely on no where else to turn but to him.
He stood before me with his arms open waiting for an embrace…however it seemed like I tiptoed towards him. Slowing dropping chain after chain. Getting a taste for more freedom with every step. Trusting a little more with ever move. Raising my face from shame. Changing from a scared little girl into a women fearing only the Lord. Before I knew it His arms were tightly wrapped around me in a mighty embrace. Telling me my child I love you and I always have and I always will.
Today when I look in the mirror a see a child of the most high God. And I may have many battle scars but I wear them with joy knowing what each one stands for. Knowing that each one of them mean victory :-)!!